Hey it’s me again… emma. It’s been a long time! and let me tell you, so much has changed. If you have read my previous parts i speak of this “meme legend” a lot. He was pretty much my rock 8th grade through 9th grade. Yeah, well, we broke up. Yay.
Lets back up a bit.
I left off March of 2020… holy s***. Covid got even worse and summer felt like a blur. I truly do not remember most anything. Summer went by so fast and sophomore year was suddenly a reality. I planned on going into sophomore year with a boyfriend, two best friends, an amazing friend group… God said “You really thought??” I lost “everything.” As a fifteen year old girl you think friends and a boyfriend is everything so yes, I was devastated. The school was already off to a bad start and not to mention covid was still haunting our every move; wearing masks at school, social distancing, hand sanitizer every five seconds, staying home 24/7, no socialization, etc… Because of covid, toxic friendships, and the breakup my mental health and grades suffered. I felt so confused and lost. First semester, again, went by so fast… it’s really going by so quick. I had to watch my boyfriend move on and fall in love right in front of my eyes, no avoiding it. I fell into a deep… sadness. Not depression. Just sadness. I continued to put on a face so people didn’t question anything.
Before i knew it second semester was here. Right now it is March 4th 2021. I’ve grown so much. Especially through the breakup. I will always love him and i do love him… but im not in love anymore if that makes sense. he's not my person. and im okay with that. I just signed up for two honors classes, I have all A’s except for French because it makes zero sense to me.
I’m ready. For everything. This summer is going to be a summer of discovering who i am and who i want to be. A summer full of taking those risks and saying those yes’ I talked about in 8th grade.
This is to me. This is for me. I am Emma White, and I am worthy.
There will most def. be an update! so stay tuned…
oh
and
hey,
future emma…
Im proud of you girl :)
